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January 3 2016 7 03 /01 /January /2016 23:21
Blessed Redeemer - Do We Have the Correct Picture?

How well I remember the old Hymn -

"Blessed Redeemer! Precious Redeemer!

Seems now I see Him on Calvary's Tree,

wounded and bleeding, for sinners pleading,

blind and unheeding, dying for me!"

That is a great place to begin our relationship with the Redeemer of mankind, but we dare not stop there! He is not in that piteous, lonely, rejected, suffering place any longer! He went there on our behalf, thank God! But that is far from the last we hear of Him! And we need to get that picture of His position firmly out of our minds! It is a religious smoke and lights game, which keeps us grateful, but enslaved! If He ONLY died for us – that would have accomplished perhaps, as it did for the thief next to Him which acknowledged His Lordship, an entry into the heavenly realm! But there would be no possibility of any victory here, with the LORD of Glory out of the way!

This morning as the song rolled through my spirit as I was showering and singing in tongues, as I often do, another version began to overwhelm it – which said -

“Blessed Redeemer! Precious Redeemer! Seems now I see Him at His Father's Right Hand! No longer bleeding, begging or pleading! Ready to lead all at His command!”

He has come in power to defeat the foes! He has come in power to cure our woes! He has come in power to equip His Saints! We must be careful, of what pictures we paint!

Lest we attribute weakness to Him, and miss His strength for ourselves! Lest we botch our assignment because of bad press and unreliable intelligence. Lest we fall short of the heavenly calling, because we considered Him to have fallen short of it! We must adjust our vision of Him! The Word says, when He comes, we will see Him as He is!

However, I think we have missed the fact that this is because those to whom He is due to return, will have been seeing Him all along, and have become His loyal followers, disciples and committed special ops crew!

We must exalt Him as LORD of All, We must show up to answer His call! We must stand ready at His command! Having done all, then, now we just stand!

Shalom Chavarim! Happy Sonday!

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December 28 2015 1 28 /12 /December /2015 16:03
'Twas the Night Before Christmas, 2015

'Twas the Night Before Christmas, 2015,

the times sure are changing, get a load of this scene!

It's not going to be a White Christmas this year,

and no fat man is bringing the source of our cheer!

The night before Christmas! Yet still, through the house,

our A.C. is running, 'cause we live in the South!

It's too cold for shorts, but much too warm for snow,

this lukewarm humidity, now, really must go!

The children, who should be all tucked in their beds,

are on the play-stations and xboxes instead,

or visiting on Face Book, or on Instagram,

or laughing at Vines, or some new You Tube scam!

The gaming and visiting on electronic devices,

give headaches and neck aches requiring ices!

What the heck ever happened to a long good night's rest?!

I'm thinking a curfew for all might be best!

While gathering strength to re-order the wreck,

and retrieve the poor kitchen, which was trashed all to heck,

the hubby and I hope to retire in haste,

and not let a minute of sleep go to waste!

We make for the bedroom, and fall into bed,

with visions of one whole night's sleep in our heads,

We loudly proclaim as we shut our door tight,

Merry Christmas to all, and please turn out the lights!

Then we happily dream, knowing our bunch is the best,

and they'll turn down their games so the old folks can rest!

Then when morning dawns, drowsy heads will appear,

to open the gifts and partake of the cheer!

The bustle of life, if just for a short time,

will give way to the blessed Prince of Peace, so sublime.

Love of God, and of family, gathered now in His name,

is the best of the gifts, we are so glad He came!

To remind us of God's Love that first Christmas morn,

when the angels sang out that God's Son had been born!

And reminding us now of the treasure of love,

That came down to earth from God's heaven above!

We quietly pause all the bustle and noise,

to drink in the Love and the Life and the Joys,

that we take for granted the rest of the year.

So we've got the wrong day?! Hey, we're just glad He's here!

Sleep deprived, happy faces, shut down phones for a bit,

to spend time together, to share love and wit,

to enjoy the quiet, of a late Christmas morn,

And to re-visit the stable where the Christ-child was born!

And then with a flurry, launch into the day,

with everyone scurrying on their own way,

And we hear them proclaim as they drive out of sight,

“We love you so much!” Yep. Those kids are alright!

;)

SCD

2015

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December 23 2015 3 23 /12 /December /2015 14:42
Star Whores, The Farce Awakens!

Sorry, but as you have already surmised from the title, this isn't going to be another gushing accolade to this pitifully inept episode of the “Star Wars”, the pretend universe! So if you are a dyed in the wool lobotomy victim of this serial brain killer, please just ...

"move along...this isn't the blog you were looking for!"

Consider yourself warned. This is going to be a whip-lash kind of ride from fantasy to back to harsh reality. Since, in my honest opinion, Lucas' imaginary universe should have been shut down upon the completion of the first trilogy! Since then it has been one long, tedious, sacrilegious, money-mongering, roller coaster ride into the dark side, at the expense of mistakenly faithful, undiscerning, cult-following space cadets! Lucas has made out like the bandit he is, but his audience is not the richer for it! Enough is enough already!

I was onto, and put off by, his obvious ulterior motives at the first episode of the second trilogy. Originally, I think, that effort was merely an attempt at creating “back-story” for his beloved characters. A “history” of sorts, from which he probably should have started, in the first place! But, I think that this idea was hatched at the request of his groupies and sci-fi fans – whom he was all too happy to satisfy, since he certainly had the most to gain from it! I went, originally, full of anticipation and hope that it would be as good as the first three, and something of quality that I could share with my young son, who was eager for more of this cowboys in space kind of action. But alas, it was not to be. I left bitterly disappointed, morally insulted, and intellectually outraged!

He lost this fan when he stopped creating fiction and began using this story to insidiously incorporate his religious bias, and peddle his false religion in the guise of fantasy. What is Lucas' “Force”? Nothing but a bunch of eastern religious ideas, centered in the whole “yin/yang” ideology. Which insists that Good and Evil are equally strong, opposing forces that must stay equal to keep balance in the universe! When, in reality, NOTHING could be further from the truth! And honestly, his abuse of truth wouldn't trouble me if he didn't have such a dedicated following! Really!? When I hear people arguing over whether or not this story line was true to the “cannon” of the story? Gee. That sounds familiar. Where have we heard that concept? Oh yes! That other false religion, sometimes known as Christianity!

But for the record - Evil creates imbalance, making a void, wherever it is allowed to work! One can never have too much good! Good does NOT create imbalance! Good IS balance!!! And according to the Scripture which I read, “There is Only ONE (source of) GOOD...”, which is Almighty God, and that Good God will one day defeat evil once and for all. So resistance is futile. Thank heaven! It is not, as Lucas would have us believe, doomed to go on tediously battling for eternity!

Lucas, who is obviously under the influence of “the dark side”, further crossed the line of my religious and intellectual tolerance by insinuating that the evil one, who was to become “Darth Vader”, in his story began as THE ultimate “good guy”, and even was “virgin born” (of the force, with no accountable father), and that his blood contained the power of light or darkness. And then – he went on to propound that he was “turned by the dark side” because good was getting the upper hand, or something ridiculous like that! ?

Um. No. He should NOT have went there! That is utter blasphemy against the real story of good vs. evil. Too close, and too deviant, at the same time. He should have stuck with fantasy. This is a subtle but dangerous ideology, folks, which too many Americans really believe! We humans, in our fallen state, are stupid enough to believe that we can produce good all on our own – despite the ever growing reams of evidence which profoundly prove otherwise!

It is works like this, which are the result of this kind of faulty, fallen, belief structure, which are also responsible for perpetrating the utter stupidity we now have in our floundering society! This influence of ideology peddled by the film industry which has aided and abetted the utter void of logical reasoning that is now called “political correctness”.

This descent back into the dark ages began a few decades ago, as we watered down God's standard for doctrinal tradition, and then became even more weakened, as, again, we traded down, from Scriptural literacy to man-spun philosophies – such as “situational ethics”! And we have now come to this place of utter selective stupidity! I guess we haven't accurately remembered the Dark Ages and are therefore doomed to repeat them! Oy vey.

And my other problem with this latest bomb is this - someone actually praised this movie for “finally” putting forth a “strong female persona”...? Wow. Really?! After how many years of this same thing being perpetrated? What we had here was a simple reversing of roles. Now we are going to rewrite the whole thing so that Leah – or her down line - can play the part of Han or Luke? Wow. That's new!? No. I think we've had enough “Betty-bad-ass” imagery for a bit!

It IS time for women to take their place of authority beside the men! That is for sure! You'll get no argument from me on that one! Way. Past. Time! It is time we stopped being placated, demeaned and diminished! It is time that our authority was acknowledged along with the responsibility that men have typically loved to heap onto our already full plates!!! It is time we got back some of the R.E.S.P.E.C.T we've been expected to dish out! We have been given equal authority with our men – By God – the real and only “Force” in our universe! And it is time that men stopped trying to usurp that authority! Seriously – for their good as well as our own – it would be in their best interest for them to finally grasp the reality that we were NOT made to kiss their hairy keesters and clean up their incessant messes! We were meant to rule with them! NOT be ruled BY them! Ugh.

However, US grasping our authority in God automatically eliminates the need to be in competition with THEM! Authority in God has been a place that we have been kept from. And, as a result of this ungodly oppression, we've forced ourselves into their place - trying to break out of the slavery which they had shoved us into. I get that! Been there, been that! Didn't want to but the hat!

But this ridiculous bad-ass mess that is being peddled as free womanhood these days is not a picture of what we need to become. It can't work, because it is not God's design for us. He made NO ONE to be second fiddle! He made us all to harmonize! We women are fierce. We are mighty. But we are also elegant and dignified. We don't need to wear shrink wrap, turn ourselves into a female version of Arnold Schwarzenegger, out-maneuver Bond, out bad-ass the famed Texas Rangers, and out-swear the Marine core to prove our worth! When will we stop fighting each other and turn our combined forces on the real enemy! That is the day when the dark side really loses.

So the conclusion of this rant is that morally and intellectually this film is an epic failure! And as for the way the story line is going, the way they deal with their heroes....from me... they get an F minus, minus! I think this trash has made Lucas enough cash. We, the movie going public, should sue for retribution, for the utter waste of our time and money, and damage to the mental facilities of our loved ones!

Let's get our head out of our....culture, entertainment, and amusements....shall we?! And let's, for a change, pursue the only Real Force and True Good of the Universe! Time for Lucas' universe to find the dark side of some trash can... to hell with the stupid force already ...

May the Blessing of Almighty God Be With YOU!

Selah.

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December 17 2015 4 17 /12 /December /2015 15:51

Empty Nesting? Gone, but not Forgotten, and Certainly Not Mourned!!!

While I like the sentiment expressed here, in a meme that was posted, I do not like the imagery attached to it! If I could recreate a meme to go with this sentiment I would definitely lose the pining granny and the Eeyore! I might put instead an energetic eagle flinging unnecessary baggage out of her nest? lol


I have LOVED being a mom and homemaker! But I refuse to be one of those pining "empty nester" types! It is taking some adjustment to get used to not being "needed" so much! That's for sure! And the temptation to lay down at this point is huge. I am a bit frayed and grayed! lol And SO NOT looking forward to having to redesign this life, one more time at least, and try to recoup the parts of me that I sort of neglected which I shouldn't have! HOWEVER.....


I do NOT plan to wile away the final years of my life languishing over the past! I got the good out of those years and enjoyed most of it immensely! (*Though, regrettably, I was not always in touch with, nor able to fully express that enjoyment as I would have wished to! But that is water under the bridge, which I will not spend my time trying to fish in!)


NOW IS NOW - and it is time to stash the fond memories, discard the not so great ones (since what I needed to learn from those has been thoroughly extracted) - and MOVE ON toward the NEXT great adventure!


My life so far has been a series of mini-careers/ministries. So I am excited to see what this next, and possibly "final", earthly adventure into the entrepreneurial world will bring forth, and what kind of "ministry" it will demand!? What do I mean by "mini-careers/ministries"? Well, let's see if I can explain...


For starters, most of my single, young adult, years I was fully enmeshed in the ministry of "helps". Not too surprising, since the name my mom felt led to pick was "Sandra Gail" - the origin of which, being combined, means Joyful Helper of Mankind! Boy did she nail that one!! Except it was sort of "calling those things which are not as those that are" kind of thing! I mean, the helps part came easy enough,but the joy had to be cultivated out of hard rock! The Eeyore was totally appropriate in those early years...had to lose those brown-colored-glasses! But the JOY has gradually replaced the OY! So here we go!


Over those youthful years I zealously and tirelessly helped the various pastors with whom I was affiliated clean their church buildings and homes, I helped them get out the weekly or monthly newsletters, I helped in praise and worship, nursery duty, missionettes and youth as well - on an as needed basis. I helped facilitate, cook for, and clean up from myriads of functions. I helped church members with child care on various levels. I helped elderly with projects yard work, or whatever. I helped find homes for homeless people.....Etc. Etc. Etc.! And I usually worked a job, plus had my own business wherein I actually got paid to clean as well - what a concept! And all of this continued, and increased as I transitioned into a newly married woman, and Gene and I took on all of these jobs together! Those years spanned about 10 years, counting the single years, and the "married without children" years altogether.


Then I transitioned, as the number of children steadily grew, into a mostly "stay at home mom" - who, by the way, hardly ever stayed at home! lol - Funny how that works! The child-bearing years did stretch on - I was either pregnant or nursing for about 15 years! During those years my activities revolved around taking children to events, and my "helps" became facilitating those events - plus STILL helping facilitate events and Church related functions as well - in my imaginary spare time! While dragging around multiple levels of car seats, and diaper bags, and trying to home educate them as they each grew into those stages. And then people dared to judge my house-keeping! The nerve!


But as my motto was, and still is, "People before things", the house-work frequently took a back seat to helping others - whatever they needed help with! In fact, I actively chose to carefully and deliberately lay aside my perfection orientation needs where neatness is concerned so that my kids could be kids within the limited bounds of our always too small living quarters!


And I have to admit it has never, yet, fully recovered to the preferred level. (Since I am still outnumbered and all of their genes did not include a proclivity toward excessive neatness! Ugh. but it isn't over yet!) So I consequently adopted another motto with which to comfort myself - "When Jesus comes, It's all going to burn!" lol Meaning that I should focus on that which will NOT burn - and I believe I have succeeded at that!


As the children each matured at their own rate, becoming self-reliant teens, thus freeing me up a bit, I then took on elder care as well! Glutton for punishment? I prefer to think of it as preparation for blessing! My Dad was winding down his stay here on earth, and Gene's Mom began to experience some serious health issues! The elder care career turned out to be about a 15 year run, altogether.


Now the children are steadily graduating out of my Home Academy, and our aged parents have graduated from this life into the next - so I am finding myself with more and more time on my hands! But it is significant to note that by the time Emma graduates in 2018 I will have been home educating for 25 years!


So...yeah... I have been a busy gal! One might note that the numbers when added together are more than I am! This is because frequently those "careers/ministries" overlapped! I have been the poster child of multi-tasking! But my life has been rich and full and blessed by love, with both laughter and tears! We have not lived as "well" as some, materially speaking perhaps, but we have LIVED to the fullest extent! And have done without nothing that was vital to our ultimate well-being!


God has led each step of the way! Providing a mate, when my family was sure no sane man would have me. Providing children when abuse had ruled that out. Providing a joyful, restful, calm against all odds. Providing everything these people, whom He gave us to steward and care for, really needed - to grow, mature, and develop into who HE wanted them to be!


And I have no doubt that HE will provide the direction and means for this next grand chapter in the story of Duncanshire! If the LORD tarries this story will be an Epic Tale to rival Abraham! We may indeed be our own mini-nation before time winds to an end. Let the Adventure continue!


Stay tuned, Chavarim!

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December 13 2015 7 13 /12 /December /2015 18:31
Some Basic Realities of a Life in God

Numero Uno – None of us are as well acquainted with ourselves as we think we are!

There are blind spots, self-deceptions, projected images of others – both positive and negative, and deliberate deceptions of our mortal enemy to keep us from God's best in our lives! So, “who we are” and who we believe ourselves to be – can be quite different! The “us” that we perceive, and that which we project to others is NOT always the same “us”. Hence the many difficulties of “knowing” each other!

Many disagreements in the Body of Messiah even, result from this discrepancy of perception. We are often trying to hold people to a standard which they have set forth for themselves – when they think they are upholding that standard perfectly! And then we find ourselves at cross purposes! And wind up very cross indeed!

Numero Dos – We don't always judge others by the Spirit, as instructed. We often judge them by the five senses. This will never work. That fleshly element has been granted NO Authority by God! No one's flesh cuts the muster, so it can not be a suitable criteria by which to judge people! We must know them by the Spirit, and then hold THAT part of them accountable to the Truth by the Spirit – speaking the Truth in Love, from our spirit-man to theirs! That is the only way that a full circuit of spiritual authority can be exchanged. That is the only way that strongholds are pulled down and yokes broken. The only hope of captives being freed. It is HIS method. And the only one which will produce life instead of death!

Numero Tres – True self-awareness comes only through death to the fleshly version of “us”. Narcissism is nothing but flesh gone to seed! It is the flesh in full control of the person. It is mental illness. But it is not something which won't be healed, when the processes of Spirit & Truth are applied in Faith.

Yeshua put it this way; “He who has found his life will lose it, and he who has lost his life for My sake will find it.” (this statement, which is recorded in all of the Gospels, is not double-speak, or irony – but it is referring to the two version of “life” - it is contrasting the spiritual plane of existence with the temporal realm) He is saying by this that we only really find ourselves as we are willing to be lost in HIM! As we are willing to let our fleshly perceptions go in favor of His spiritual upgrades.

Numero Quatro – The annoyances of life, those things which tempt us to take offense, which really piss us off, however one wants to phrase it – which makes us want to use off color words – like piss, etc. - are designed to flush that off color, unloving, untoward, ungodly, impatient, non-gently, road-raging, coarse, mess out of us! And flush it does! It is, in more spiritual terms, the “refiner's fire” that drives the dross to the top to be scooped off.

However, it become evident as we go that it is how we respond to those annoyances which determines whether they get scooped off or more deeply imbedded into our being! We must choose, each time, whether we will respond from the spirit-man or the flesh-man. The spirit-man will always choose life, grace, forgiveness, joy, peace, patience....LOVE. The flesh-man will always choose strife, bitterness, etc. which all tend toward hate and eventually death in some form. But the choice is always there. And our level of spiritual maturity, our level of actual faith, our level of purification – will become obvious at these times, if we are paying attention.

A general rule of thumb is this, if everything that happens tends to annoy you, flush evil speaking in some form, or cause a general unrest in your innards, then you are likely living too much in the fleshly realm, and some repentance and more pressing into God is advised – a.s.a.p.!

Why am I addressing these things? Because – if one could see this nasty fleshly run off in the spirit – I would guess that there has been quite a flow of brown stuff flowing from my soul these days! The stench of offense has not been far from me, for too long at one time! I have been noticing – because the Spirit of God is pointing it out to me – that I am annoyed every five seconds on the average! Over stuff that is SO inconsequential! Tedious stuff that! It makes for terrible sleep, kills any hope of rest, and opens the door wide for the sap-sucking enemy to rob you blind! No good!

I keep telling you folks, that in order for it to get to your toes it has to stomp mine first! If that is not true of whoever you are listening to, then you should stop listening! If, however, my toes are in HIM where they belong, they do not get stomped! So let that be a lesson to me! Lol As I say, I don't make this stuff up! I just do as I am told!

So. That is our lesson in living the life in God for today! If any of those things fit your situation, then you will know what to do! If they don't, then praise God and check back in at a later time! Everyone have a wonderful Sonday afternoon, entering into His rest – or repenting so that you can!

Shalom Chavarim!

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November 26 2015 4 26 /11 /November /2015 12:56
Living Thanksgiving!

We sow the seed, then kill the crop! This wanton waste of Life must Stop!

Sterilization, Abortion, and Other “Birth Control”, which we use instead of Self-Control,

Have brought the judgment of Almighty God against our Nation's very sod!

This lazy sin has got to cease, if we are ever to find peace,

We must repent of wicked greed, which causes us to scorn our seed!

We must repent and seek His face, to learn to live in Love & Grace!

His Grace is not His kind permission, to just ignore The Great Commission!

We have responsibility, and when we shirk it we lose Authority!

We must obey God! Instead of demanding He Bless! The experts can not fix this mess!

Yeshua died to break the curse, but the way we live still invites the worst!

Rebellion! Selective Stupidity! Run rampant, while we refuse to see,

or accept, the mess which we have made, when the price has long been fully paid!

Still we press on, protecting our sin, thinking there's a chance that we might still win!

We may win our mere mortal lives, “as a prey” - that is IF we were to repent today!

We are wasting the Sacrifice of the Son, and the enemy of our souls has almost won.

We've given him everything he needs to destroy us, when we sold our seed.

The blood of our young cries out to God, and the injustice of so many from our blood soaked sod.

We've , traded life for bloody death, and I don't hear much repentance yet!

Today we all should hit our knees, stop playing games and gorging please!

Put down the beer and the remote - and let's beseech our God for just one more vote!

Let's beg that He would turn our nation, and save our future generation!

Let's forget our flesh for one dang minute, and beseech our God to help us win it!

Let's stop our sorry fleshly ways, long enough, at least, to give Him praise!

Let's lift Him up, and seek His face, and beg His pardon on this place!

Let's take back our God given authority, and accept our responsibility!

Stop whining, please, about your mess! Stop striving, seek God, who lives to Bless!

Let's repent! We'll turn our nation back, find the Grace we lost, and “get back in the Black”!

Yes! Let's get out of sin, and out of debt, & finally live free! Since our LORD has paid the highest price yet, that day on Calvary!

To give us what the devil stole, in Eden way back then, and what we gave right back to him, preferring our own sin!

Let's accept God's lovely sacrifice and finally turn away, from sin & self & greed & lust, and give Him Thanks today!

Let's lift again the cross of Christ, and cherishing His holy sacrifice,

May our banner truly be, His love and grace and holiness that makes us truly free!

Let's start today, by giving Him the praise that's really due! He's done so much, but it's our turn to live like it's all true!

Thanksgiving. Time to contemplate His blessing from above. Reflecting on His mercy, His goodness and His Love.

A time for family, a time for friends, for those who care enough, to stop the hurry of their lives and put aside some stuff.

It shouldn't be the food or games or shopping that's the reason,

this year, could we just stop and THANK “the reason for all seasons”!

Shalom Chavarim! Chag Sameach!

Hodu L'Adonai Ki Tov! Give thanks to the LORD for HE is GOOD!

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November 24 2015 2 24 /11 /November /2015 16:02
Thanksgiving 101

Wow. What can I say? Lately I have felt like the poster child for “Lemony Snicket's Series of Unfortunate Events! I think I have come to embody that one quote for which Joyce Meyer has become famous - you know, the one where she said that she went through a period of time in her early walk with the LORD wherein if, “(she) thought two positive thoughts in a row her mind took a cramp!” That is what the warfare this week has been like. In fact, I have been noticing a creeping tendency toward grumbling for awhile now. That miserable tendency to see the cloud over top of every silver lining, etc. My mother called it “the s.... colored glasses”. Perhaps we can see the source of the trouble here! Lol Poor mom! She thankfully got saved, but not fully delivered. Well, not here anyway!

But as for MY issues, I wanted to share some examples, and how I have overcome (or am seeking to) so as to perhaps help others who may be struggling with this just now. I do not think this is a coincidence that I have uncovered this nest of viperous thought patterns the week of Thanksgiving! Nor do I think it is a coincidence that I seem to have had a major set-back in this area right when I began to believe God for some progress in a few areas, and are seeing that progress! No way! I smell a demonic rat! But I think, while I am sure there is a plot of the enemy to keep me from another victory, it may primarily be only some more “flesh” dying, so no worries!

Anywhoo...onto how I discovered this nest of negativity …..I have been praying for our needs to be supernaturally met, for spiritual and practical reasons! After all, not only does the Word instruct us that, “the just(ified) shall live by Faith” - but the current situation of life seems to demand it! And, since it doesn't look as though it might improve in the immediate future, then practicing living by faith – practicing being the art of cultivating a discipline or habit pattern - seems like a very practical thing to do!

But I don't think I ever noticed before exactly how many “vain imaginations” and “unrighteous thoughts” I have left loose and running around within my personal boundaries! Negative thought patterns, which the Word commands us to “take captive to the will of the Anointed One”! In describing these brain cramping yucks, I think the Jewish writers of these epistles would have used phrases like “Yetzer Harah” (the evil urge), or “Lashan Harah” (evil thinking and/or speaking), which the old King James referred to as “Strongholds”, and which some translations have rendered “Keeps” (of the enemy, by which he controls our lives through our thoughts, beliefs, words and deeds) while the current phraseology to describe such mental quagmires is “negative mental paradigms”.

Whatever you want to call it, it sucks, leads to depression, and basically robs one of joy and sets us outside of the presence and blessing of God! Hence the enemy's great effort in that department I suspect! But the really annoying thing is that once he gets your hard drive infected with the negativity virus he doesn't have to do another thing! He can go do something else and just watch us destroy our own lives and peace, not lifting a finger! Grr. Why I have let this go on this long I do not know! But it ends now!

The unseen, but very real, “giants” in MY land, within MY boundary lines over which I have been given Authority and permission – commission in fact - to conquer – but which I have not been obedient to slay, and some I have even unwittingly protected have to GO! Oy gevault! What a schmuck the flesh is! These “Giants” which are bullying, heedless, unreasonable brutes stomp through every so often dropping worse case scenarios in my brain, and accusations - that may or may not be real – which come from my perceptions of the attitudes of those closest to me! Mental paradigms or strongholds in my soul which color and interpret according to that negatively suggestive bent. So. Not. Good!

Some of these negative, extremely persistent, pesky, thought patterns are most likely just the next “layer” of years of unattended generational curses, which I was supposed to battle with the Word and take down! And which I have been steadily working on, since I finally got that understanding. But I found help with all of that stuff later on in my life, and so it has been an uphill battle. A battle which I have fought with diligence and determination for about the last twelve or so years! And for which I sought the help I needed to begin overcoming for about 20 years before that! Yet, still, there seems so much to be done before peace is the reigning atmosphere around here. So let the work continue, I had gotten weary in well doing! Break's over sister! Time to get with it!

I have seemed to be wrestling constantly against well set-in, both learned and inherited, thought and habit patterns (we're talking Imo Jima level set-in – go read the history of that take down – before the bomb....)! And I am getting weary of trying to keep this thing in a positive direction for more than five minutes at a time! How ironic to think that as a child my siblings called me “Pollyanna” because I was so annoyingly positive! But, of course, I have since learned that much of that “optimism” was due to a better than average system of denial and suppression! Oy!

Well, can't win them all! Or can we? Yes. The answer is yes we can win them all, through Christ who strengthens us! Because Yeshua has already done the work and given us the weapons! But – well- see what I mean? Because I haven't done the work necessary – obviously – I have to work way too hard to stay in the positive flow of things! As I just aptly demonstrated for you! But it is time to trade in this oy for some JOY! It is time for these strongholds to come down!

Well, anyway, to get off that Rabbi trail and back to the point of sharing how I discovered this problem, I had prayed for supernatural supply, and specifically for a deer roast to add to the menu for Thanksgiving. Turkey seems to have gone up dramatically, and we are avoiding pork for the most part (though not as diligently as some would desire – still we have made a start). But I just really wanted a good piece of deer meat! That very day that I prayed, I am not kidding, someone where Gene (my husband) works gave him a cooler full of meat! Fresh, unfrozen deer meat! Two shoulders, & two hams. They had been basically field dressed and put on ice – delivered right to my door! All I had to do was prepare them for cooking and/or freezing. How blessed is that?!

So. I am in the kitchen at the sink wrestling these huge pieces of meat trying to get that membrane stuff off, and clean them up, etc. and I feel this sort of whiny, grumbling begin! Seriously! I was starting to get tired, and that began a downward spiral of thoughts about how hard the job was, etc. etc. I won't bore and disgust you will all the pitiful details, but you can probably imagine! I mean, in reality I realize that it is a less than glamorous job. Sort of disgusting actually, to our modern, pristine, germ-conscious society. No doubt. But – as the HOLY SPIRIT quickly and firmly reminded me in mid-grumble – I prayed for this!!!!!

So. Having caught myself – or rather having been caught – and corrected – at this incomprehensible act of ingratitude – (talk about biting the hand that feeds you!) - I quickly and thoroughly repented! Then, prompted by the Spirit of God, went about using the act of “confessing our sin one to another so that we can be healed” as a teachable moment! (Home School Mom!) I called Eli and Emma (my two youngest, and the only students in my education/discipleship program) over, and shared with them what I had just experienced. And suggested that we begin to take note of these kinds of “opportunities”, or temptations to blow our blessings! Adding, wisely, (I have been at this awhile) that we primarily make these notations for ourselves first – but also for each other – to hold one another accountable. And also that it could be an opportunity to practice the rare art of “speaking the truth in love” and/or “correcting one another in a spirit of meekness, humility or gentleness” - not with an - “OOOh I caught you at it again!” sort of attitude!

But since then, there have been so many positive thoughts derailed by this pain-train of gross ingratitude that none of us have time for me to list them all! You would not believe it if I did! I can scarcely believe it myself. Most people consider me to be a grateful person. And indeed, I do express gratitude a lot! I have made it a point over my life. That is probably the only reason I have survived some of the stuff that has happened to me. Because, in all fairness, if anyone had a real reason to be negative, to think negatively, to have a dim view of life, to wear the aforementioned “dark glasses”, it would be me. And I am not just sucking worms, there are years of documented deliverance sessions with witnesses to back up what I am saying. I had the worst beginning possible, from the womb on. So there has been some real overcoming to do! Understatement!

Still! We must consider the Truth of the Word! Did Yeshua come to deliver us or not?! He did! And did He succeed at His mission? He most assuredly did! So while there may be very good reasons to be negative there is no excuse! And I am determined with the help of God to beat down this mess in my life! Today I have already wrestled an alligator sized grumbling opportunity! I had made plans for some in depth cleaning today in preparation for Thanksgiving! I had, of course, counted on the kid's help – seeing that I am to begin a monstrous cooking episode as well! But miraculously, Gene's boss asked them to come help in bindery, giving them a much desired opportunity to make money to buy gifts and such for the upcoming seasonal events! But it threw my plans under the bus...and I am getting so tired of my bus being hi-jacked....etc.etc. ...and so it began! I had to really get hold of myself, and go, wait just a minute here! Sheesh! This is an answer to THEIR prayer! Get over yourself!

Okay. So. At some point I would like to get a few more boundaries on my existence and feel a bit more in control of my personal life than I have felt for the last thirty or so years! BUT – either God is going to be in control of my life or not - and “don't look a gift deer in the mouth” and all of that! So it is that time again, wherein, as the lovely people in my neighborhood like to say, to “Scratch my big butt and get happy”! I think the Word says it this way, (2 Cor. 10:3-5)

3For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh, 4for the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh, but divinely powerful for the destruction of fortresses. 5We are destroying speculations and every lofty thing raised up against the knowledge of God, and we are taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ,…

I have learned by now that He does not command us to do things for which He is not willing and able to equip us! If He has decreed a thing, it will come to pass. We are the only thing that can block His will, because He gave us a free will! But even we can only block it in our generation! Or we can unblock it in our generation! The choice is ours. And Yeshua shed blood to ensure that we get that choice!

So today, I am asking for all the prayer strength I can get! I want to live in the mind of the Anointed One (Christ)! I do not want to be subject to the negativity of the world, the flesh and the devil! I do not want to be blown about by every wind that blows – religious or heathen! I do not want to be a mere pawn of an anti-God, anti-anointing enemy! I want to be a real force for righteousness!

But please note with me, if you will, that grumbling and complaining about anything is not the path to that kind of victory! I find it extremely appropriate that this next layer of revelation, deliverance and gratitude-attitude cultivation is happening right here between Tabernacles and Thanksgiving! The feast of Tabernacles was the original Thanksgiving, and was the model for the one which was had by the first “immigrants” to this land, so graciously accepted and hosted by the hospitable original inhabitants!

This Thanksgiving I want to live Thanksgiving! I want every fiber of my being to resound and emanate gratitude! As the Pesach song says, Dayenu! It would have been enough! Had He only chosen us for His people, but had not defended us every step of the way... Had He only created us, but not redeemed us when we threw it in His face... Had He only rescued us from Egypt, but not given us instruction whereby we could stay free.....(what?! You thought it was just a bunch of rules to check off for brownie points?! Nah!) ….Had He only rescued us from the earth's destruction by the flood, and not given us a land of our own...Had He only forgiven us, but not sent a Torah, a living Torah in Messiah Yeshua, His Holy Spirit to lead us into all the Truth/Torah....etc.etc. ...You get the gist.

In other words, if He never did another thing – It is enough already! If He never answered another prayer – He is worthy of our praise, loyalty and gratitude! And it is high time we – I – began reflecting that truth with my entire life and existence. Beginning with my attitude. Today begins the downfall of the stinking thinking! All prayers appreciated as the Journey/Transformation to Life continues!

Shalom Chavarim! L'Chayim!

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November 15 2015 7 15 /11 /November /2015 20:31
An Appointed Time, for Every Purpose Under Heaven

There is a time to advance and a time to retreat, there is a time to press and a time to pass. There is a time to remember and a time to forget! There is a time to forgive, and a time to hold accountable – and often relationships those are combined.

There comes a time in some of life's toughest battles, wherein, when one has fought as valiantly and as long as one's strength remains, he or she finally admits defeat, even if only temporarily! And then, with a heavy but resolute heart, knowing that they did the best they could, and gave the best they had, one must cut the losses and moves on!

We can not expect to win every skirmish – I have lost friends and loved ones to cancer, and death in other forms – I still don't know if it was a “faith failure” or something else. But, even when it seems that we have lost that battle to the enemy, we must still have faith in the One who has already won the war! If we hold onto Him, it will all come out alright in the end, on that final day, there will be victory for those who have loyally followed, the best they could, and submitted to His help and transformation! We will be vindicated, and our enemy eradicated! Hallelujah!

But for now, the point is not to always look victorious. It is to rest in His victory as our own. The point is not to win kudos with men. It is to receive His crown of victory, which He gives to those who persevere to the end! With God the process is 9/10ths of the grade! How we act through the process, how we trust through the process, and if we hold on all the way through and don't faint midway through the test!

There is a test coming, Chavarim, which is the mother of all tests! That will stretch our faith to its breaking point! But don't forget who is the Author and Finisher of that Faith. If He allows the test, then He knows our faith can hold. The question is will WE hold on? Will we allow it to be stretched, and still follow? Can we like many of the Jews during the holocaust, keep our faith in a God who doesn't come through as we would like Him to? Can we still say, “Dayenu”? Which, in essence means simply, “You've done enough already!”

Listen, there needs to be a radical awakening of Thanks Giving, Praise and Gratitude in HIS people! If He didn't do one more thing for us EVER – if He never healed us again – if He never prospers us beyond where we are – if He never answered one more prayer for us at all – are we aware and convinced that He is still worthy of Praise – because He has ransomed us from hell? He has overcome death, hell and the grave – and in HIM so have WE? So what can frighten us? This body may die – but after that we – us – our eternal spirit-being – is loosed to limitless bliss and eternal joy! Why would we be upset about that?

I think at this point we need to be about being who He is making us to be, and we need to be about sharing His transforming nature with others, so they can become who they were designed to be! We can not manipulate others into being better people, but we can love them to a Savior who can change them from the inside out!

I think that we need to stop trying to tell God His business, and just be about what we already know He wants done. Love His people, feed His flock, and build HIS Kingdom. We should be living to bring HIM glory, not to build our own fortress. I will tell you now. Forget being safe. Those days are well over. There is no way to make it off this planet alive. Some day, some way, we are all going to die to this fleshly body, and lower nature. Either we will go with Him to glory, or we will be dragged screaming into hell – but eternity awaits each and every soul ever created. To me, the logical and brilliant thing to do is to give Him the glory due to His Name, so that, when it all wraps up, we get to share in that glory, and live more of the story! But maybe that's just me.

Whatever happens next in this saga, I want to come through it having held onto Him, and the Faith He built in me. I want to come through it hearing those precious words...”Well done, good and faithful servant, enter into the Joy of the LORD.” What a day that will be. And for the trip between here and there? Well, as I always say....”His Grace IS sufficient!” And that we can count on. And THAT is a very good thing....Dayenu!

Shalom Chavarim, Shavua Tov!

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November 10 2015 2 10 /11 /November /2015 17:51
Repented or Uprooted?

Maybe It's Time We Read The Whole Context of Our Favorite Scripture?

The Word of God is the most "pro-choice" document ever written. BUT the choices are limited to the two real options. There are no man made imaginary lists from which to choose. Life or death, blessing of God or curses of disobedience to Him. His way or anything but the "high way"! God is so pro-choice that He "put His money where His mouth is", so to speak and gambled everything away on His Son's willingness to obey Him - to buy back our right to choose! Since we had been hornswaggled out of that right by the very first liberal politician! Satan himself.

II Chronicles Seven, Verse Fourteen. It's the, “If my people.....” verse. It is much quoted, and much “declared” by those who are speaking the Word in Faith over their lives. It is a powerful declaration of faith – if it is being spoken IN Faith!

However – I think at this point in history it is necessary to say that simply speaking what we want to come to pass is not always enough to get the job done. It sure does beat speaking against what we want! No doubt about it! It is definitely a step in the right direction.

However – if we do not believe that which we are speaking enough to bring our lives in line with it then it is nothing more than more noise cluttering up the atmosphere! How often have I been rebuked by those who had just gotten hold of the whole “Word of Faith” concept – because I was being too negative (realistic) about what was going on. Only to pass them on the side of the road a month later, having thrown down all their spiritual toys, indulging themselves in a huge pout-fest at God for not hupping to their “faith”! Wow. Like God was some kind of lackey or valet!

Of course, there IS something to, “speaking those things which be not as though they are...” oh yes! But what is often missed is that those things being spoken must meet with faith that emanates from the heart, because we have received and believed that which we speak from God's Word to be more real than whatever circumstance or situation we are trying to overcome with that discipline! We must see God and His Word, His solutions, as bigger than the opposition in our lives! If we do not, then it is all nothing more than another religious word game we play with ourselves. It will fall to the ground void, and end up wrecking our faith, rather than enabling it. We must understand that faith comes from an humble heart, and does not emanate from hubris permeated flesh!


I have gleaned a good deal of comfort from the two favorite verses of this passage below – verse thirteen declares that even if we have been obstinate and rebellious, thereby causing the curses of drought, pestilence and other plagues to come upon us (which we have, by the way – and that is why we are facing the probability of biggest economic crisis in history in our very near future) – but if we will Repent of our sin and turn our lives back to Him – He will reverse all the curses and make us truly His people once again! That is such good news! That no matter how badly we've blown it, He is willing and able to fix it all for us if we bring it to Him and confess our failure!


His fury is real, but His mercy is unfathomable! We would not be so gracious if we were treated as we tend to treat Him. We treat him like a parent who allows themselves to be taken for granted. We call when we need money, or when we are feeling nostalgic, or guilty! Otherwise, busy life whirlwinds us away and our thoughts rarely go back to them at all. We build no real relationship, nor do we maintain the one we once had! This is a sad but common travesty in the Kingdom of God – that the King is treated as some Jinn – waiting for his bottle to be rubbed so that he can do our bidding! How dare we?


This passage of scripture is not so much about saving OUR nation as WE have built it! It is more about allowing Him to tear down what was wrongly built, and then building it according to HIS plan, and then OCCUPYING it for HIS Glory and flying HIS flag over it!


NOT the “Christian Flag” mind you – that religion is too mixed down with the very idolatry which brought the curse in the first place! And not the American Flag either – as it has frequently stood for things which God has ferociously forbidden! Instead we must fly the flag of Yeshua the Redeemer! The Messiah of Israel! Our champion and savior! Who has brought down the curse of sin against mankind once and for all – if only we will accept that freedom from sin in order to STOP sinning!


Why would we accept deliverance from a prison, only to return to the prison every chance we got?! But that is exactly how “Christianity” in this nation has been operated! It has been cheaply used – His gifts have been cheaply squandered – and still, at the end of the day, most of those who think they are HIS – are pursuing things which He would openly condemn – which He has already condemned! And yet we wonder, and complain, at the destruction which steadily encroaches.


Where is the Repentance? Where is the …. “will turn from their wicked ways....”? Where is the seeking HIS FACE? Where is the serious attempts to line up with His Word and ACTUALLY LIVE IT? Then – and ONLY THEN – will He “hear from heaven and heal our land”.


I don't know about anyone else, but this old girl is scrambling to seek His Face! I am digging to find out what really pleases HIM – not so much what people think, or have thought, is “okay with Him”! I am on my face on a regular basis – trying to be sure that I am hearing His heart and have the faith to comply! Not because I am so pious or sanctimonious! But because, in the spirit realm I see the destruction just over the hill! It is coming for us – because as the “Arrow” says to all his apprehended perpetrators - “We have failed....”, F minus, minus! Epic fail! Disastrously blown it.


Blown what? All chances of receiving His blessing unless we change! Unless we stop resisting and begin to cooperate with His transformation processes! Unless we begin to hear His heart and exhibit His character! It is over for this nation. We who have remained faithful can expect, “our lives for a prey”. I am not sure if it is realistic to expect much of anything else.


And even at that I don't think He is necessarily referring to this natural life. That will burned in the fires of His wrath! But WE – the real us – the healed us – the redeemed, sin-free us – we will be saved. And that is a greater mercy than we deserve.


So – my plan is to keep on seeking Him – and to try – as often as I can find my sanity – to offer Him the Praise due to HIS NAME! Because circumstances notwithstanding – HE IS WORTHY! Always! And forever!


May I, and His truly faithful ones, not be turned back from following Him! May we not get so caught up on changing our circumstances that we forget that His plan was to change US. And so He is, steadily, day by day, minute by minute. And One day – if we do not fall away in deception or frustration – we will see Him as HE is – and we'll be privileged to live separated from ALL evil for the rest of forever! I, for one, can hardly wait.


My challenge to you this week, Chavarim, is to read the passage of scripture below in context, and see if it doesn't alert you to areas in your own life that need repentance and radical change! And then – do it! And then – seek HIM! And then – be changed by His Spirit more into His character than you were before! And – repeat! And – as you do – never mind the red cups. Those red cups are the LEAST of our worries! Judgment begins in the house of God – not the house of the heathen! Leave them alone and let's clean up around our own door step could we? Let's begin a campaign to “Get Christ in Christians”! In fact, some fasting – from many such pleasures - may even be in order on that subject .... Selah.


Shalom Chavarim! L'Chaim!

II Chronicles 7:12-22

12Then the LORD appeared to Solomon at night and said to him, “I have heard your prayer and have chosen this place for Myself as a house of sacrifice. 13“If I shut up the heavens so that there is no rain, or if I command the locust to devour the land, or if I send pestilence among My people, 14and My people who are called by My name humble themselves and pray and seek My face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, will forgive their sin and will heal their land. 15“Now My eyes will be open and My ears attentive to the prayer offered in this place. 16“For now I have chosen and consecrated this house that My name may be there forever, and My eyes and My heart will be there perpetually. 17“As for you, if you walk before Me as your father David walked, even to do according to all that I have commanded you, and will keep My statutes and My ordinances, 18then I will establish your royal throne as I covenanted with your father David, saying, ‘You shall not lack a man to be ruler in Israel.’

19But if you turn away and forsake My statutes and My commandments which I have set before you, and go and serve other gods and worship them, 20then I will uproot you from My land which I have given you, and this house which I have consecrated for My name I will cast out of My sight and I will make it a proverb and a byword among all peoples.21“As for this house, which was exalted, everyone who passes by it will be astonished and say, ‘Why has the LORD done thus to this land and to this house?’ 22“And they will say, ‘Because they forsook the LORD, the God of their fathers who brought them from the land of Egypt, and they adopted other gods and worshiped them and served them; therefore He has brought all this adversity on them.’”

Repented or Uprooted …. hmmmm - so far the choice is still ours. Selah.

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October 22 2015 4 22 /10 /October /2015 03:27
The Circle of A Life, Observed

When I was young I was smoking hot, smart as a whip, strong, capable and virtually tireless. I was into helping others, and trying to better myself at the same time. Life seemed one long blur of constant activity. I worked, studied, worshiped and dated with enthusiasm and eagerness! I was hopeful and yearning, and dreaming.

As the years rolled on I went from smoking hot to comfortably warm. I was blessed to achieve many of my dreams – though often not in the ways earlier imagined. I was privileged to marry a dreamy man. With whom I birthed and successfully home educated seven children K-12, also trying our hand at discipling them into the service and loyalty to the LORD.

During those already full, hectic years we also provided elder care to two of our aging parents, who needed serious levels of care physically and emotionally over many of those years. And in the midst of all of that, I managed to keep home neat, clean and fairly organized – though not obsessively so, and nourishing food cooked, and friends shown the proper hospitality, etc. I was still into helping others – but I had given up “bettering myself” – having realized that the Holy Spirit had been working on that full time since I gave Him the go ahead. But I was living most of my dreams – except the really far out ones – and I had obtained the home I once yearned for. Life was progressively good.

Now, my once hip length, very dark, very straight, shining chocolate brown hair is shorter, sassier, and shining silvery white - gravity has taken its toll in too many areas to count – and now my nearly grown, children – who are the smoking hot ones - refer to me as “cute little mommy”! Now, the same people who learned everything from me - from moving, to eating to reading, to moral values - now think it somehow miraculous that I can operate a computer, or a phone, with some savvy! Those to whom I once provided everything for life, now frequently fill some of my needs. I still dream the far out dreams, try to appreciate the close up blessings, and cherish the loves in my life. I try not to live in the past – which can not be revisited, nor the future – which may or may not manifest in my life time, but to really engage in each moment as it is passing. To be alert, aware and compassionate to the world around me.

Funny how, as we age, we lose our edge, our memories blur with our eyesight, and our hard earned respect becomes an ever decreasing commodity, which some people seem to feel compelled to offer due to the years garnered – though it seems to be forgotten that it was actually earned for so many other reasons in seasons past! It is sadly ironic how the people we raised barely recognize our gifts, talents, and abilities – which we vouchsafed to them – carefully protecting and nurturing in them - and for which they now credit mainly themselves. And it is odd how we – who once seemed to run the known world - now seem to be fading into an invisible anonymity as the next generation takes the helm and catches the batons which we will inevitably, eventually drop into their waiting hopefully prepared hands.

The circle of life from the cradle to the grave – rolls in one seamless flow of years – passing through the learning and achieving years, into the productive years and then onward into the slowing down, cherishing, exiting, years without so much as a warning bell being sounded. Suddenly people find themselves being cared for, instead of giving the care – hopefully by people who understand what it is to really care. Wondering, when we gave the care did we care enough? Did it show?

I am far from the end of the circle – unless there is a serious interruption – and yet I have observed enough to know that the end is not as far off as anyone would love to think. Twenty, perhaps thirty, at the most impossible stretch forty years.....which – as the last fifty- plus have proven - will go by as swiftly as an hour of sheer intensity....and I will fade like the last leaves of autumn...like the last silvery-white frosts of winter....into a silent memory.

Hopefully, I will have left a mark on this world for the better. Hopefully in allowing the betterment of myself, I will have bettered those around me as well. Hopefully, I will not have lived in vain, nor loved ineffectively nor unintentionally. Hopefully, that I was here, in the end, will have been a good thing.

Hopefully my dreams will have been achieved, my hopes will have been fulfilled, and my gifts deposited where they will do the most good. And most of all, I hope that I gave my God the glory that He deserved for making me into the best me I could be, and that I gave myself the credit of living a life with minimal regrets – due to the purposeful way it was lived by me – in spite of all the reasons for it to have been otherwise. Hopefully I will have been a monument to the goodness of God in a very twisted world. And one can hope that His light shone more brightly through my intense, inherited, darkness.

Hopefully I will join the heroes of the faith, as, Like Paul I will one day stand and say -

“I have fought the good fight, I have finished the course, I have kept the faith; in the future there is laid up for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day; and not only to me, but also to all who have loved His appearing.”

As the circle of life begins its last arc to completion, as I round what looks to be the last stretch of my race, I take a deep breath, steady my pace and I say, Amen, May it be so, LORD Yeshua, may it be so, and Lord, May I make you proud!

SCD

10/21/15

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  • I am a devoted follower of Yeshua, the Messiah. I have been married to Gene Duncan II for 37  years, and counting. I have 7 children, 3 boys & 4 girls - all grown up. They have been home educated, K-12. I also write, hence the blog  (including, but not limited to: children's books, poems, and personal growth art. ) Please stay tuned as I share my personal journey through poems and writing.
  • I am a devoted follower of Yeshua, the Messiah. I have been married to Gene Duncan II for 37 years, and counting. I have 7 children, 3 boys & 4 girls - all grown up. They have been home educated, K-12. I also write, hence the blog (including, but not limited to: children's books, poems, and personal growth art. ) Please stay tuned as I share my personal journey through poems and writing.

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