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May 8 2011 1 08 /05 /May /2011 08:43

 

 

First of all I want to do the obvious thing and honor my Mother. Due to a life ravaged by illness and spiritual depravity she did not live up to much honor. Yet it was her "barque" that bore me hence, if a bit unwillingly, and I am grateful (most days - lol).

 

Her name was Mary Ruby Livengood Carlton. Her birthday was just a couple of days ago, May 6th, 1926. She was witty, beautiful in her day, gifted in many things and eventually saved, (if not fully delivered down here). When I mourn for her, it is for the fact that she did not ever get a chance to enjoy the life which G-D gave her, she never got to enjoy her children, or her faith. I know something of the struggle which she endured, for I inherited some of her troubles, but I have a testimony that I have overcome. She, sadly, did not overcome, she was overwhelmed and gave up the struggle July 16th, 1978, at 52 years of age. She did not fulfill her potential.

 

Yet, for all her faults, which were unfortunately considerable, I loved her and still do. She was mother. Sometimes the good things about her lived only in my very skilled imagination, that is okay. She would have lived up to all that had she had the opportunity, I am sure of that. But she was never introduced to the Jesus that I know. She was only led to a spare table of limited doctrine, it was not enough to sustain her, since she arrived there half dead in the first place. They did not know, nor could they give her what they did not have.

 

I think that perhaps the saddest thing of all is the struggle to find positive things to say when attempting to honor her. I know that she had wonderful potential, but she never had opportunity to realize it, as I said. Mother only found the Good Shepherd in time to be escorted to that place of comfort. She needed that comfort. Some would say she did not deserve it. Let he or she who is without sin cast the first stone. For years I honored others on her behalf, sadly they have all "gone on over" too. I guess part of my drive in striving to realize my own potential is to honor her, and also to honor the G-D who blessed us with potential in the first place. So Happy Mother's Day to all Mothers out there struggling to fulfill your potential, may you succeed!

 

Also, I want to say that I appreciate my home, I am glad to be a mother (most days), and I am glad for the love of my family. I am thrilled and honored to be blessed with children, to me everyday is "Mother's Day"! I am doubly blessed because I was told, and it was confirmed medically, that I had been rendered incapable of child-bearing by years of severe abuse! So every Mother's Day is a reminder of a miracle of G-D's love for me, and a reminder that these people are not here by accident, that G-D really, really wanted them here, as much as He wanted Isaac. But then, I could say that about most of the people I know! G-D does not micro-manage His creation, but He is in control! I don't know how He does that, I don't worry about that, but I do appreciate it and enjoy it!

 

Psalms 27:10 says, "When my mother and father forsake me, then the Lord will take me up." I have taken comfort in that Scripture since I was old enough to read. So on this mother's day, I give honor to my mother who bore me hence, and also to Gene's mother, the other grandmother of my children, whom I am privileged to know, love and care for. I also wish to honor those women who have spiritually poured into my life over the years, you know who you are, beginning with that nameless face behind the hands that gave me that Sunday School card of Jesus holding the children when I was three, which started my love affair with Him, and culminating most recently in the excellent ministry of Pastor Carolyn Lee at Jubilee Christian Ministries, who has led me to freedom through the gifts of the Spirit, and has become the closest thing to a mother that I have ever known, no one else dared adopt me! lol. But even more than that I honor Avenu Malkenu, the G-D who is more than enough, who has been my mother, father, friend and King since I can remember, who made me a mother against all odds, and who has caused me to triumph in it by faith, when failure seemed inevitable.Thanks are due as well to my husband who assisted G-D in blessing me with my seven children, and to the children who turned out well rounded and functional in spite of me! 

 

My wish to all you mothers, and potential mothers,  out there is found in Psalms also, Psalms 20 to be exact, verses 1-5 in particular:

 

"May the LORD hear thee in the day of trouble, and may the G-D of Jacob defend thee: May He send help from the sanctuary and strengthen thee out of Zion: May He remember all thine offerings, and accept thy sacrifices. May He grant thee according to thine own heart and fulfill all thy counsel. We rejoice in thy Salvation, and in the Name of our G-D we will set up banners: May the LORD fulfill all thy petitions."

 

I could show you no more honor, nor wish you anything better than that. Have a Joyously Fulfilled Mother's Day, and don't forget to honor the LORD on whose day we squat!

 

~ Selah! (It is a very appropriate passage for May, since each line begins with it! lol)

 

On a side note, whose bright idea was it to stick Mother's day, and other holidays on the LORD's day anyway? To me this is an irreverent practice that dishonors the LORD. We have five other days, if you skip Shabbot too, which we should, to put holidays on, in which to honor our loved ones, and those thought worthy of honor. But Sunday was put aside by the early church to honor the LORD, or that is what we have been pedaled, at least. If it is not that, then we should drop the pretense. If it is the LORD's Day, then how can it be Mother's Day? Not that we can't honor both, but doesn't it sort of water it down a bit? I don't know, I'm just thinking that we need to think these things through a bit better, that's all. I don't even know if it is a big deal to G-D, it just bugged me, that's all. For what its worth. I am not trying to establish another doctrine - G-D Forbid!

L'Chayim!

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<br /> Sandra! How are you? Thank you for visiting my blog. I haven't seen you in a while so it was very nice to "see" you online! :)<br /> <br /> Reading your post makes my heart hurt for pain you must have endured during your growing up years. I'm glad your mama did meet Jesus, even if at the end of her life.<br /> <br /> It takes a lot to share the stuff you've shared today!<br /> <br /> <br />
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  • I am a devoted follower of Yeshua, the Messiah. I have been married to Gene Duncan II for 37 years, and counting. I have 7 children, 3 boys & 4 girls - all grown up. They have been home educated, K-12. I also write, hence the blog (including, but not limited to: children's books, poems, and personal growth art. ) Please stay tuned as I share my personal journey through poems and writing.

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