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September 4 2021 7 04 /09 /September /2021 00:29
Working through the Current Fires . . .

Working through the latest fires ….

 

I know that God is on the move! It's been ON like Donkey-Kong! Resistance to everything we set our hand to do! As well as even MORE Contradictions to what I've been believing for!

 

Now, don't get me wrong, the devil doesn't deserve credit for all opposition in our lives! Especially if we are servants of GOD! There is this thing called a refiner's fire – and that is pretty hot stuff. Because THAT is what is necessary to purify the gold in us to the level that is acceptable for The King of Kings, and Lord of LORDS! So, whatever all this is, I am trying to Stay in His Presence, Trust in His Goodness, and Live/Work and REST in His Shalom!

 

But some of what I've been experiencing is definitely NOT of GOD! Accusing voices, dredging up stuff – for which I KNOW God has forgiven me and cleansed me! Stuff that “was me”, back in my more broken stages of life, but that hasn't been the new me for a season! Somehow though, people seem to love to hold me, through some well set in strongholds or filters, in that old place. Instead of being able to acknowledge the work, healing and progress I have made!

 

My observation has been that those who do that find it easier to shun any truth I may be bringing! Somehow, making me the monster/scape goat in their success stories seems to somehow justify any fleshly issues, rebellion, or just religious misunderstanding they have about God! Some of which was most likely some of my fault at the time, but which now falls squarely into their basket of responsibility!

 

So. While I can, and do, readily acknowledge the processes, and actual realities, behind the accusations, it doesn't lessen the pain of where they are coming from. It doesn't keep it from breaking my heart. I just have to keep turning back to God, over and over again. The God of All Comfort. Who is faithful, not only to forgive us for our sins, whether they are committed out of ignorance or rebellion, and to CLEANSE us of ALL the resulting filth and difficulty! And not only does He forgive and change us, but He heals us of all betrayals, disappointments and failures! I am free. I am being shaped into His image. I am no longer guilty of my brokenness and stumbling of the past.

 

I know, and God knows, that I have always done the best I could at being the best person I could be, of trying to represent Him, and Love people, especially those closest to me, I've tried so hard! I've always worked to find help. I am still being changed. I don't know anyone who is perfect yet! But for some reason I seem to get more flack for that than most people. Perhaps it is just part and parcel of the whole prophetic gig. I don't know. I just know that there has been more than a bit of turbulence of late.

 

I realize that I just can't care too much what the "report cards", filled out by these new adults, will say. They haven't seen the full job yet. Hopefully, prayerfully, they will NEVER encounter some of the frustrations, betrayals, lack and challenges I had in trying to raise them! I wouldn't wish that on my enemies! But I do hope they eventually grow some dang grace, and give me some well deserved credit for the fact that they all turned out flipping brilliant!

 

No. It wasn't JUST their Dad's genes! Some of it was my training, teaching them how to learn, how to take responsibility for their lives, in both ideology and example – and my spiritual warfare in tearing down the generational strongholds on all sides of this family collection!

 

I have been on a journey to wholeness the whole way. I began very broken. They think I was rough, they should have gotten just a glimpse of what my poor broken mom was like. But I have been able to forgive her broken, psychotically ill, utterly destroyed flesh, and to cherish her real, better side, and walk free of the wounds she caused or contributed to.

 

So I do at least have hope that one day, if they can just get past their flesh long enough, my kiddos might be able to get hold of the Healing Anointing of Yeshua, and let Him help them do the same for me. If they want healing Jesus can and will dish it up. This I know. And that gives me peace.

 

Speaking of Peace . . .

 

Shabbat Shalom Haverim!

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  • I am a devoted follower of Yeshua, the Messiah. I have been married to Gene Duncan II for 37  years, and counting. I have 7 children, 3 boys & 4 girls - all grown up. They have been home educated, K-12. I also write, hence the blog  (including, but not limited to: children's books, poems, and personal growth art. ) Please stay tuned as I share my personal journey through poems and writing.
  • I am a devoted follower of Yeshua, the Messiah. I have been married to Gene Duncan II for 37 years, and counting. I have 7 children, 3 boys & 4 girls - all grown up. They have been home educated, K-12. I also write, hence the blog (including, but not limited to: children's books, poems, and personal growth art. ) Please stay tuned as I share my personal journey through poems and writing.

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