THE TIME IS SO CLOSE!
There is a rumbling in the camp. An unrest. We have heard the cry go forth, "We have dwelt long enough on this mountain! "
It is time to let go?! Really?! Finally! What to pack? What to leave behind? The destination is uncertain, who knows what we'll need? Could it be any worse than what we've already endured? First bondage to the world, then training in the desert?! Has He not wonderfully met our needs?! What does He say to take?! The camp is stirred. Excitement is rife! Moving day again! It has been a long time since we visited the Jordan and looked into that Promised Land! We survived the last 40 years! Thank God! We didn't die off like the unbelieving ones! By some miracle! By His Grace!
Switching analogies - SOON - by all the information we have - by all we know to be true and right - It is finally, will be very soon time to P.U.S.H.! Press Until Something Happens! How we've longed for the attending Physician to give that Word! The pains press down upon us, and we long to be delivered of the load we've been harboring, nurturing, longing to hold in our arms! We have longed to be launched into that new place of freedom and responsibility!
Transition Labor is almost at an end! The birth is ready to happen! New life will soon be springing forth again - soon. Soon. What a wonderful and annoying word! Soon the Word will go forth to PUSH! And that which we've been expecting with such anticipation will finally be here! It has been HERE, like an elephant in the room, almost literally! But not where we can hold it. Not where it can grow and we can really enjoy it. It is maddening to be so close and yet so "far". We struggle to keep from fainting, to resist aborting the whole mission! We struggle to live from day to day, when there honestly seems to be no point! This burden, this pain, this flirtatious, illusive dream seems as if it is doomed to go on until we die, and never manifest to our satisfaction!
It is often hardest in the last weeks of any "pregnancy", or any incubation time of expectation. It is the most difficult to "just wait" - when there is absolutely NOTHING that can be done to hasten the thing, or even know when it is to appear. But we usually know that it will! It has to, doesn't it? There is the fear of miscarriage, or of robbery, again - especially if we go mucking about trying to speed things up to our satisfaction! But the hope of life is somehow stronger, the knowing, thankfully, increases daily as well as the pain and/or discomfort at the current state of things - which also seems to increase daily!
There is no more space for it to grow! No more grace for waiting! There is no more patience... no more strength! We are tempted to beg and plead, but we know that it is no use. We are tempted to go running into the woods screaming! But we will need our strength when the time comes! It is coming! Right?! Right! We breath deep breaths of peace into our being, and try to rest until the time comes.
That is when we must dig in and wait upon the LORD who renews our strength! That is when we need the Holy Spirit, and His fruit or produce of patience the most! That is when worship is the greatest distraction from our discomfort!
BUT! What we often miss is that this excruciatingly important period of time is also when change is the most longed for and appreciated - and we are only just now desperate enough to do or endure anything to have it!
Which means that now, only now, are we prime, ripe and ready for the changes which are to come. Changes which before we couldn't even imagine! Only now do we have the patience needed to manage what is about to be birthed! You see, the patience and wisdom to steward God's assignments are incubated along with the assignment itself! We must be having an elephant literally! A herd of them perhaps! Or is it more like a Nation?!
We have been blessed with seven "assignments" already. We lost one by miscarriage, before we even knew it was there and needed protecting. These assignments are most precious treasures with which God ever entrusts mankind. And our quiver was full! We have stewarded them in the fear and admonition of the LORD! It was an awesome assignment, start to finish! One which seemed as if it might go on forever, and yet seemed to wrap up with a blinding brevity! Where have the last 28 years gone?! We have only a couple of years left of this assignment, as the seventh born will be graduating then, and finding her way in the world, holding to God's hand!
So now - watching the eaglets fly the nest one by one, feeling left behind, used up, and "done" in more ways than one - we are chomping at the bits for the next assignment for which those assignments have prepared us to the nth! We are daring to trust God that instead of being done as we feel, we are merely transitioning to the next level! We are daring to believe that this time, when we come to the Jordan, we will have what it takes to go over! That we will, like Caleb of old, consider ourselves, as HE does, "Well able to take this Mountain"! Or however many may be assigned to us!
We thought we were raising the last assignments! But now we see a dual "raising" had occurred! We now see that "Family" is God's Ideal training ground for His Kingdom work. Family that is done HIS way, that is. That is why Family has taken such a beating from the enemy! That is why it has been industrialized out of our society, and fragmented even in the organized system erroneously called "Church"! That is why we are now confused about gender, race, age and everything else. It is why people continue to feel a need to try to redesign God's wheel - and it is a result of people long ago who felt a need to redesign it! We have left God's system and need to return to it! And somehow, being a part of showing the way back to that system is our next assignment! We will have to just trust Him to point the way on that one!
BUT - If we want our nation back. If we want to see the Church be more than a laughingstock. Then we'd better get our heads out of our man-made systems and get ourselves back to God's system - which begins and ends in FAMILY - the only thing GOD ever instituted!
Just think about this seriously for a minute. Are we called the C.E.O. of Christ? Aren't we referred to as Bride, and The Sons, and Body of Christ? We need to leave the mechanical, electronic man contrived methods of trying to do HIS stuff OUR way, and get back to God's organic way of discipleship - His one on one, face to face, nurturing, hospitable, ways of making warriors and teachers and Kings and Queens for HIS Kingdom - instead of building cookie cutter automatons for ours!
We need to stop striving after our own ideas of greatness and simply accept His plan of greatness for us. Then and only then can He entrust us with His true riches. Whatever form of "ministry" or "business" that may take. God is not man - that He should be so compartmentalized and sterile in His approach to discipleship. He embodies the character of both male and female counterparts and weaves a seamless, whole, holy, entity which becomes His Kingdom here on earth. And if we let Him, if we don't strive against Him in favor of our own way, He will weave us into that Living, breathing, Kingdom Body. We lose our independence, and yet retain our individuality. I don't pretend to know how He manages that, but I am aware of it, and in awe of it!
So. To the next phase. Adventure is out there! L'Chaim! As ONE!
The FAMILY BUSINESS OF GOD!